Walking Free

Gary Jules - Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very, mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very, mad world, mad world
Enlarging your world, mad world

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A story of a person in depress mode,

That one day was a hard day for me, depression hits right into me that I felt totally helpless. Not knowing where to go and there are responsibilities for me to be around. A friend from Machester came down for a visit with her friends a day ago and today we were suppose to head to another friends place for dinner. However, feeling totally desolated, without a doubt I choose to run. While I was walking out the house, my really nice housemate called for me, asking where I am going. Not able to talk, I just said I have something to do and not able to attend the dinner later. Feeling bad, I left helplessly.

So, I walked out there in the wintry weather all alone. Not knowing where to go, my closest friends are my housemates. Some are not in Newcastle as they are on Christmas Vacation. Other close friends are weird; they can’t hang out with you alone. So I guess they are just not as close as they seem to be. I detest those kinds of friends, they are not dependable. Still, I choose not to call anyone, I love being alone at such saddening time.

Out of every where, I choose to head to the library. Everywhere is expensive here, we pay in pounds. I head out for a drink here in Newcastle 1/10 compared to when i was in Malaysia. That's saddening. Having no extra pocket money for leisure such as heading down to a pub for a drink or two with a friend, there is no better place than a library with free facilities. Sitting down alone at level 4 (sei), the library was quite empty as it was Christmas holiday. Most of the students have gone for vacation or taking a break back at home. The area I was at was calm and monotonous; of course, I am in a silent floor…level sei...